PAIN RANT

Things have sort of calmed down for the meantime in regards to appointments and tests, but I’m currently in an overwhelmed state of mind.

I’m planning (and hoping) to have a procedure done called a Superior Hypogastric Plexus Block, where a needle will be inserted into my back to “reset” one of my nerves to see if it will reduce or even completely get rid of my chronic pain from Adenomyosis (don’t quote me on that… I do my best.) I’m not sure when I can have it done, or the logistics of it all yet, but it’s possibly the next step in my journey. Possibly. Continue reading “PAIN RANT”

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BEING NICE

“Three things in human life are important: the first is to be kind; the second is to be kind; and the third is to be kind.”
Henry James

I think every single one of us has had a not-so-pleasant experience, particularly in the customer service area – anything in the public, really.

Maybe they’re having a bad day, or you did the thing that annoys them the most – who knows? It’s understandable that they won’t be perfectly chipper each and every time they deal with somebody, they’re doing it all day long. Continue reading “BEING NICE”

PAIN REMEDIES FOR ENDOMETRIOSIS & ADENOMYOSIS PAIN

Well, I wasn’t planning on writing another post on my health/pain today, but I felt the need to due to how the day went.

Today, I had absolutely terrible pain – the kind that makes you want to scream and/or curse repeatedly. No matter which way I moved, I hurt. All I could manage was laying on my bed and watching Breaking Bad episodes I’ve already seen before. Eventually the pain faded and currently it’s at a dull ache.

I’ve not had children, but I’ve heard that Endometriosis/Adenomyosis pain can sometimes be comparable to labor pains, and in extreme cases of those diseases, sometimes even worse than labor… I was in such agony for those couple hours, I kept wondering, how on earth do women have children? Bravery, I tell you. I don’t know exactly what labor’s like, but I do know this pain. 😦 Continue reading “PAIN REMEDIES FOR ENDOMETRIOSIS & ADENOMYOSIS PAIN”

YOU CAN’T BANDAGE MY PAIN

The room cold and sterile, you tell me the options I have for treatment.

One thing I’m scared of, and another, terrified. Continue reading “YOU CAN’T BANDAGE MY PAIN”

OCD ISN’T A REAL CONDITION?

I can’t count how many times I’ve broken down from dealing with OCD, depression, and anxiety. How many tears I’ve shed; how many days I’ve felt like a waste of space, too tired to do anything productive; too scared of the future; too depressed to want to live anymore.

Sorry, this concept really grinds my gears. This may just be my snarkiest post yet… Continue reading “OCD ISN’T A REAL CONDITION?”

MY HUSBAND AND I SHARE A TWIN-SIZE BED – A LITTLE INSIGHT INTO BEING BROKE NEWLYWEDS

So I’m not quite sure where to begin this post, so I’ll delve right on into it, writing with a cheap beer in one hand and a saddened heart that longs to write.

We’re broke. Very much so. Our living space is about 12 x 12 feet (the help of staying with family). We don’t have the available funds to upgrade a bed, let alone the space to put one!

In newlywed-ism (is that even a word?), you have this idea in your head that it’s perfect and glamorous; living in your apartment or house, driving a nice car, working on fancy careers, leading your own life, the start to a new happy chapter. The “superficial” life stuff that automatically goes along with love and adulthood. Just climbing on up the ladder of success. Continue reading “MY HUSBAND AND I SHARE A TWIN-SIZE BED – A LITTLE INSIGHT INTO BEING BROKE NEWLYWEDS”

DEALING WITH FAILURE DUE TO CHRONIC ILLNESS – I FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER

I feel like a failure all the time.

If I didn’t have any (or as many) issues with my health, I probably would’ve achieved much more – which, is basically nothing. If eating and breathing count, if surviving counts, well, then there’s that.

Just being able to get up and out of bed for the day (usually as late as 3-7 pm…) is an accomplishment for me. I know how sad that sounds. It feels pretty sad, too. I can’t describe the frustration. I want to just lead a normal, productive life without pain… Without something weighing me down. Continue reading “DEALING WITH FAILURE DUE TO CHRONIC ILLNESS – I FEEL LIKE SUCH A LOSER”