SLOWLY BUT SURELY

Hello!

So it has been a little while, but I’m back, if not only just for now. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I’ve had the nerve block for my chronic pelvic pain (see my previous posts about the root causes of my pain) and it seems to be working. Yay! ๐Ÿ˜€ I don’t have nearly as much of that awful, heavy, bowling ball in my pelvis, it-hurts-to-walk feeling, which is such a relief. Honestly, that’s been the worst part for me lately. Whenever I’d feel that way (which was 99% of the time or more) my mood would instantly be affected (grumpy, mainly) because it was just so utterly uncomfortable.ย  Continue reading “SLOWLY BUT SURELY”

TRYING TO STAY AFLOAT

Another day, another medical procedure. Having a chronic illness (or multiple…) is really a full-time job. When I’m not at a doctor’s appointment, I’m either thinking about calling to schedule a new appointment, having a procedure done, calling my insurance company to get them to approve something I desperately need for pain relief, or worrying about any of the above.

As I was laying stomach-down on the procedure table recently, waiting for the long needle to go towards my back, a lot was running through my mind.ย  Continue reading “TRYING TO STAY AFLOAT”

I SPILLED COFFEE ON MY LAPTOP

A couple days ago, as I was trying to get comfortable in my chair, I accidentally moved my coffee mug, and it tipped over – almost in slow motion to mock me – sloshing its contents all over my laptop, which I had the mug placed on for whatever reason. I seem to use it as a table when I’m not actively using it. Why? I have no idea.

Anyway, that’s not an excuse as to why I’ve been a bit absent here. Fortunately my laptop is still holding up for now, it was closed when my coffee spilled but some did manage to make its way under the touchpad.

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15 THINGS I’VE LEARNED THROUGH THE DIAGNOSIS PROCESS OF A CHRONIC ILLNESS

I learned the hard way how to maneuver the medical world when searching so fervently for a real answer to my ever-lasting pain. See my posts about Endometriosis and Adenomyosis.

I made a bunch of mistakes, chose the wrong doctors, asked the wrong questions, didn’t ask enough questions, didn’t know much of anything.

I’m still learning, but I feel a bit more confident in my ability to handle appointments, and I now know when to get up and leave when a doctor is mistreating you – and to know that’s okay, and that it’s not always rude. (I’ve yet to do this, but I wanted to in some instances.) Continue reading “15 THINGS I’VE LEARNED THROUGH THE DIAGNOSIS PROCESS OF A CHRONIC ILLNESS”

BEING NICE

โ€œThree things in human life are important: the first is to be kind; the second is to be kind; and the third is to be kind.โ€
โ€• Henry James

I think every single one of us has had a not-so-pleasant experience, particularly in the customer service area – anything in the public, really.

Maybe they’re having a bad day, or you did the thing that annoys them the most – who knows? It’s understandable that they won’t be perfectly chipper each and every time they deal with somebody, they’re doing it all day long. Continue reading “BEING NICE”

OCD ISN’T A REAL CONDITION?

I can’t count how many times I’ve broken down from dealing with OCD, depression, and anxiety. How many tears I’ve shed; how many days I’ve felt like a waste of space, too tired to do anything productive; too scared of the future; too depressed to want to live anymore.

Sorry, this concept really grinds my gears. This may just be my snarkiest post yet… Continue reading “OCD ISN’T A REAL CONDITION?”

CANCELING DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS LAST MINUTE, WHILE STILL IN PAIN?

Hi, again.

I’m mad at myself for not getting a post on here yesterday, and did I miss the day before that too? I don’t even know.

I was supposed to have an appointment tomorrow, but I canceled it because the pain I made the appointment for (I assumed it was an ovarian cyst) has gotten better – it’s still there, but not nearly as bad as it has been for the past month. I feel thankful for that.

Now, there are plenty of other reasons I could have gone for (Adenomyosis is flaring up very badly currently…), and I’m not too convinced that the original problem is resolved, but, I just didn’t feel like dealing with what a doctors appointment entails. Not tomorrow. Not soon.

I hate these feelings I get around appointments. Heightened anxiety creeping in my mind as the days count down to the day. As the actual day rolls around, and the clock counts down, ever so quickly might I add, I feel nauseated, I can’t eat, and I experience severe stomach pain. Continue reading “CANCELING DOCTORS APPOINTMENTS LAST MINUTE, WHILE STILL IN PAIN?”