PAIN RANT

Things have sort of calmed down for the meantime in regards to appointments and tests, but I’m currently in an overwhelmed state of mind.

I’m planning (and hoping) to have a procedure done called a Superior Hypogastric Plexus Block, where a needle will be inserted into my back to “reset” one of my nerves to see if it will reduce or even completely get rid of my chronic pain from Adenomyosis (don’t quote me on that… I do my best.) I’m not sure when I can have it done, or the logistics of it all yet, but it’s possibly the next step in my journey. Possibly. Continue reading “PAIN RANT”

PAIN REMEDIES FOR ENDOMETRIOSIS & ADENOMYOSIS PAIN

Well, I wasn’t planning on writing another post on my health/pain today, but I felt the need to due to how the day went.

Today, I had absolutely terrible pain – the kind that makes you want to scream and/or curse repeatedly. No matter which way I moved, I hurt. All I could manage was laying on my bed and watching Breaking Bad episodes I’ve already seen before. Eventually the pain faded and currently it’s at a dull ache.

I’ve not had children, but I’ve heard that Endometriosis/Adenomyosis pain can sometimes be comparable to labor pains, and in extreme cases of those diseases, sometimes even worse than labor… I was in such agony for those couple hours, I kept wondering, how on earth do women have children? Bravery, I tell you. I don’t know exactly what labor’s like, but I do know this pain. 😦 Continue reading “PAIN REMEDIES FOR ENDOMETRIOSIS & ADENOMYOSIS PAIN”

IN MANAGING YOUR DEPRESSION, PRODUCTIVITY IS KEY

So we all know that depression and productivity don’t exactly go hand in hand. I laugh a little inside because I know how little I’ve been able to accomplish while battling crippling depression for the past decade. (It’s not funny, but sometimes I can laugh at how pathetic I feel I am. Sometimes.)

This past week, I was the most productive I’ve been in a long time… I literally had something planned every day of the week, which is huge for me, someone unable to work. I had a couple pressing errands to complete that I finally managed to do, a doctor appointment (hence my last blog post and poem titled “YOU CAN’T BANDAGE MY PAIN”) and I have to say, it feels AMAZING.

(Besides the hopelessness after leaving my doctor. Maybe I’ll talk more about that later…) Continue reading “IN MANAGING YOUR DEPRESSION, PRODUCTIVITY IS KEY”

DAYS

She thought of her hopes and dreams that she once had,

swirled down the drain of her spiraling life’s path,

floating down below in the sewer, where they belong, she decided.

Trying out new things were too scary, too risky, too new.

She tried reminding herself that change is always uncomfortable.

She longed for better, brighter days. Continue reading “DAYS”

APRIL IS A LOT OF THINGS, INCLUDING ADENOMYOSIS AWARENESS MONTH!

April is spring, but April is also awareness for an odd-sounding health condition.

Adenomyosis is a disease similar to Endometriosis (check out my recent post on Endometriosis from last month: March is Endometriosis Month – What It Is, and Why It Matters.) Instead of growing outside the womb like Endometriosis, endometrial tissue grows inside of the wall of the womb – at least that is my layman’s understanding.

I don’t quite feel like writing another long medical-based post because that isn’t my forte. However, I wanted to write this post in hopes it helps bring a sliver more awareness.

Whether you’re like me, and are still experiencing terrible pain after having your Endometriosis treated via excision (excision is the “Gold Standard” treatment for Endo… check it out if you haven’t heard of it), or if you’re undiagnosed and looking into possible explanations for your pelvic/abdominal pain.

**I am not a doctor, so please don’t rely on this information completely – I’ve Googled as best as I can, plus added my own experience, so things may not be perfect! Continue reading “APRIL IS A LOT OF THINGS, INCLUDING ADENOMYOSIS AWARENESS MONTH!”

DEPRESSION ON THE WEEKENDS

Empty beverage containers line surfaces, clumped together in little groups: beer cans, liquor bottles, coffee mugs. Water.

Dirty dishes.

Piles of clothes, almost about to fall over, in the corner, on the chair – everywhere.

Dust, unkempt, disorganized. Continue reading “DEPRESSION ON THE WEEKENDS”

I DON’T HAVE A LOW PAIN TOLERANCE… I HAVE LOW TOLERANCE OF CONSTANTLY BEING IN PAIN

Okay, so there’s no way, there’s no scale to judge people’s pain in relation to each other; there isn’t a test that shows just how much pain you’re in. (Not that I’m aware of…)

Comparing your pain levels to someone elses’ is pretty futile, as a result.

I’m writing this because of all the heartache that I’ve experienced as a patient who didn’t know what was wrong. Continue reading “I DON’T HAVE A LOW PAIN TOLERANCE… I HAVE LOW TOLERANCE OF CONSTANTLY BEING IN PAIN”