Endometriosis is exhausting. I’ve read things here and there that compare the fatigue from this disease to the fatigue that happens with cancer… I mention cancer in relation to endo because of some recent (May 2017) scientific studies done on endo.
Below are some links to the studies. If you have endo, I’d recommend reading them – they’re very interesting! Continue reading “NEW STUDY ON ENDOMETRIOSIS”
Depression has hit me hard lately. It’s always looming over my head like a storm, but it still seems to sink me deeper sometimes. If you don’t know what depression feels like, a good way to describe it is like a mosquito (or some other annoying bug) buzzing in your ear constantly, and you can’t swat it away. It’s unignorable – which apparently is not a real word, but let’s just ignore that little fact.
I haven’t been used to writing so I couldn’t even remember what writing program to open and write with. I figured it out, but that’s not how I want things to be going.
I don’t think I’ve cracked my laptop open in several days, which has been an ongoing trend. This plastic paper weight has just been sitting there, mocking me, and for some reason my cat thought it would be a good idea to sleep on it a couple of times. Because a hard plastic surface is comparable to a fluffy couch… I’ll never understand that! (Photo is reference for how comfy my cat looked while sleeping on my laptop.)
Continue reading “PUTTING IT DOWN ON PAPER”
Well, I’ve been MIA here on the blog. The dreaded colonoscopy happened. The recovery has been rough pain-wise (it seemed to have triggered a pain flare-up) and I’ve been so exhausted from it all. The good news is that I received good news (no endometriosis found!), so I feel very thankful for that. 🙂
Other than that, life stresses have distracted me from writing regularly. I can’t believe it’s been a week since I wrote a post. Not how I wanted this week to go, but every time I thought about writing, I wanted to, yet I didn’t. I know that as an aspiring writer, that’s not a very good thing. If I stop, I might not be able to get back on the horse again.
Photo from Pixabay.com, by Pezibear
I learned the hard way how to maneuver the medical world when searching so fervently for a real answer to my ever-lasting pain. See my posts about Endometriosis and Adenomyosis.
I made a bunch of mistakes, chose the wrong doctors, asked the wrong questions, didn’t ask enough questions, didn’t know much of anything.
I’m still learning, but I feel a bit more confident in my ability to handle appointments, and I now know when to get up and leave when a doctor is mistreating you – and to know that’s okay, and that it’s not always rude. (I’ve yet to do this, but I wanted to in some instances.) Continue reading “15 THINGS I’VE LEARNED THROUGH THE DIAGNOSIS PROCESS OF A CHRONIC ILLNESS”
So, as of lately, I haven’t been the swellest. I was going to say ‘wellest’, but nixed that since it’s not a word.
(This post involves Endometriosis and uterus talk.)
I found out I may have more Endometriosis lingering after having had fairly extensive surgery for it last year, and the chance at getting a partial hysterectomy for my Adenomyosis is very slim, unless I search like a mad woman through all the possible doctors, which is definitely not an appealing prospect. I can’t even remember how many different doctors I’ve seen in the past few years – heck, mainly the last year. Continue reading “A LITTLE UPDATE ON MY HEALTH”
The room cold and sterile, you tell me the options I have for treatment.
One thing I’m scared of, and another, terrified. Continue reading “YOU CAN’T BANDAGE MY PAIN”
The pain is there, taking over my body, my life, my strength.
The strength I once had is weakened, as each ounce of pain I endure fatigues my frail mind and stature further.
Sometimes, I remind myself, I am strong for being able to deal with the constant pain.
Most times, I feel like a crippled version of myself, unable, lacking, too tired to feel like a warrior. Continue reading “I DON’T MEAN TO WHINE, I JUST NEED TO WRITE”