SLOWLY BUT SURELY

Hello!

So it has been a little while, but I’m back, if not only just for now. 😉

I’ve had the nerve block for my chronic pelvic pain (see my previous posts about the root causes of my pain) and it seems to be working. Yay! 😀 I don’t have nearly as much of that awful, heavy, bowling ball in my pelvis, it-hurts-to-walk feeling, which is such a relief. Honestly, that’s been the worst part for me lately. Whenever I’d feel that way (which was 99% of the time or more) my mood would instantly be affected (grumpy, mainly) because it was just so utterly uncomfortable.  Continue reading “SLOWLY BUT SURELY”

WHY ROMANTICIZING MENTAL ILLNESS IS HARMFUL

Romanticizing mental health issues is seen as a somewhat “cool” thing these days, but from someone that lives a life void of ‘normalcy’ due to the effects of mental health issues, I wanted to speak out. People with these issues wish they didn’t have to admit they had them, so hearing others say things such as “I’m so nervous, I have social anxiety”, or “I’m so bipolar today” is extremely painful.

Just like glamorizing a physical issue such as cancer, it’s simply in bad taste to spin a story that you have an issue that you don’t, to make yourself seem unique or more interesting – there are plenty of qualities that already make you unique. 🙂 What pretending does is damage the reputations of those who are suffering when we already aren’t taken very seriously.

I think about my issues every.single.day. because they affect me 24/7. I can’t conveniently “turn them off”. How I wish I could, because I would turn them off forever…

Mental illness is real. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

Read my OCD post here for more information regarding my struggles with OCD. 

-tired mind typing fingers

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PUTTING IT DOWN ON PAPER

Depression has hit me hard lately. It’s always looming over my head like a storm, but it still seems to sink me deeper sometimes. If you don’t know what depression feels like, a good way to describe it is like a mosquito (or some other annoying bug) buzzing in your ear constantly, and you can’t swat it away. It’s unignorable – which apparently is not a real word, but let’s just ignore that little fact.

I haven’t been used to writing so I couldn’t even remember what writing program to open and write with. I figured it out, but that’s not how I want things to be going.

I don’t think I’ve cracked my laptop open in several days, which has been an ongoing trend. This plastic paper weight has just been sitting there, mocking me, and for some reason my cat thought it would be a good idea to sleep on it a couple of times. Because a hard plastic surface is comparable to a fluffy couch… I’ll never understand that! (Photo is reference for how comfy my cat looked while sleeping on my laptop.)

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WORK IN PROGRESS

Maybe life is a work in progress,

Slow to see results, miracles not abundant.

Maybe life is a lot of waiting and wishing,

Wading through the muddy water

Before you reach your dreams.

Maybe life is little moments strung together of joy and sadness, of waiting and then receiving.

Maybe, life is simply a jumbled, beautiful mess.

-tmtf

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