So it has been a little while, but I’m back, if not only just for now. 😉
I’ve had the nerve block for my chronic pelvic pain (see my previous posts about the root causes of my pain) and it seems to be working. Yay! 😀 I don’t have nearly as much of that awful, heavy, bowling ball in my pelvis, it-hurts-to-walk feeling, which is such a relief. Honestly, that’s been the worst part for me lately. Whenever I’d feel that way (which was 99% of the time or more) my mood would instantly be affected (grumpy, mainly) because it was just so utterly uncomfortable. Continue reading “SLOWLY BUT SURELY”
Another day, another medical procedure. Having a chronic illness (or multiple…) is really a full-time job. When I’m not at a doctor’s appointment, I’m either thinking about calling to schedule a new appointment, having a procedure done, calling my insurance company to get them to approve something I desperately need for pain relief, or worrying about any of the above.
As I was laying stomach-down on the procedure table recently, waiting for the long needle to go towards my back, a lot was running through my mind. Continue reading “TRYING TO STAY AFLOAT”
Overwhelmed was my mind
when a little tear poked through my eye
and trickled down my sullen cheeks
bringing with it a feeling of relief and peace.
-tired mind typing fingers
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Depression has hit me hard lately. It’s always looming over my head like a storm, but it still seems to sink me deeper sometimes. If you don’t know what depression feels like, a good way to describe it is like a mosquito (or some other annoying bug) buzzing in your ear constantly, and you can’t swat it away. It’s unignorable – which apparently is not a real word, but let’s just ignore that little fact.
I haven’t been used to writing so I couldn’t even remember what writing program to open and write with. I figured it out, but that’s not how I want things to be going.
I don’t think I’ve cracked my laptop open in several days, which has been an ongoing trend. This plastic paper weight has just been sitting there, mocking me, and for some reason my cat thought it would be a good idea to sleep on it a couple of times. Because a hard plastic surface is comparable to a fluffy couch… I’ll never understand that! (Photo is reference for how comfy my cat looked while sleeping on my laptop.)
Continue reading “PUTTING IT DOWN ON PAPER”
A couple days ago, as I was trying to get comfortable in my chair, I accidentally moved my coffee mug, and it tipped over – almost in slow motion to mock me – sloshing its contents all over my laptop, which I had the mug placed on for whatever reason. I seem to use it as a table when I’m not actively using it. Why? I have no idea.
Anyway, that’s not an excuse as to why I’ve been a bit absent here. Fortunately my laptop is still holding up for now, it was closed when my coffee spilled but some did manage to make its way under the touchpad.
Continue reading “I SPILLED COFFEE ON MY LAPTOP”
Things have sort of calmed down for the meantime in regards to appointments and tests, but I’m currently in an overwhelmed state of mind.
I’m planning (and hoping) to have a procedure done called a Superior Hypogastric Plexus Block, where a needle will be inserted into my back to “reset” one of my nerves to see if it will reduce or even completely get rid of my chronic pain from Adenomyosis (don’t quote me on that… I do my best.) I’m not sure when I can have it done, or the logistics of it all yet, but it’s possibly the next step in my journey. Possibly. Continue reading “PAIN RANT”
Maybe life is a work in progress,
Slow to see results, miracles not abundant.
Maybe life is a lot of waiting and wishing,
Wading through the muddy water
Before you reach your dreams.
Maybe life is little moments strung together of joy and sadness, of waiting and then receiving.
Maybe, life is simply a jumbled, beautiful mess.
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