WHY ROMANTICIZING MENTAL ILLNESS IS HARMFUL

Romanticizing mental health issues is seen as a somewhat “cool” thing these days, but from someone that lives a life void of ‘normalcy’ due to the effects of mental health issues, I wanted to speak out. People with these issues wish they didn’t have to admit they had them, so hearing others say things such as “I’m so nervous, I have social anxiety”, or “I’m so bipolar today” is extremely painful.

Just like glamorizing a physical issue such as cancer, it’s simply in bad taste to spin a story that you have an issue that you don’t, to make yourself seem unique or more interesting – there are plenty of qualities that already make you unique. 🙂 What pretending does is damage the reputations of those who are suffering when we already aren’t taken very seriously.

I think about my issues every.single.day. because they affect me 24/7. I can’t conveniently “turn them off”. How I wish I could, because I would turn them off forever…

Mental illness is real. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

Read my OCD post here for more information regarding my struggles with OCD. 

-tired mind typing fingers

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PAIN RANT

Things have sort of calmed down for the meantime in regards to appointments and tests, but I’m currently in an overwhelmed state of mind.

I’m planning (and hoping) to have a procedure done called a Superior Hypogastric Plexus Block, where a needle will be inserted into my back to “reset” one of my nerves to see if it will reduce or even completely get rid of my chronic pain from Adenomyosis (don’t quote me on that… I do my best.) I’m not sure when I can have it done, or the logistics of it all yet, but it’s possibly the next step in my journey. Possibly. Continue reading “PAIN RANT”

TESTS GALORE!

A little update on my health, for those interested in the chronic illness part of my blog.

I’ve been going to doctor appointments like a mad woman lately. It started with a new doctor who then referred me to several other doctors, who referred me to other doctors… I’m not complaining because the first doctor took my problems seriously and I actually feel like I’m on a better path to figuring this whole mess out. Continue reading “TESTS GALORE!”

EMPTINESS ADRIFT

Falling like a snowflake,

melting in the spring

I pry my eyes wide open

to feel the familiar emptiness.

It’s in my heart

It’s in my conscious

Maybe it’s always been there.

Emptiness is all encompassing,

swallowing me whole like a snake

eating it’s first meal of the day.

Continue reading “EMPTINESS ADRIFT”

MY MIND

In honor of May being Mental Health Awareness month, I was inspired to write this poem as my first Daily Prompt post.

My mind,

utterly numb and drained,

restless sleep

plaguing my being,

I descend into chaotic melancholy

that is depression

and anxiety.

The two devils sitting on my shoulder–

one screaming don’t care,

the other forcing worries into my ears Continue reading “MY MIND”