PAIN RANT

Things have sort of calmed down for the meantime in regards to appointments and tests, but I’m currently in an overwhelmed state of mind.

I’m planning (and hoping) to have a procedure done called a Superior Hypogastric Plexus Block, where a needle will be inserted into my back to “reset” one of my nerves to see if it will reduce or even completely get rid of my chronic pain from Adenomyosis (don’t quote me on that… I do my best.) I’m not sure when I can have it done, or the logistics of it all yet, but it’s possibly the next step in my journey. Possibly. Continue reading “PAIN RANT”

TESTS GALORE!

A little update on my health, for those interested in the chronic illness part of my blog.

I’ve been going to doctor appointments like a mad woman lately. It started with a new doctor who then referred me to several other doctors, who referred me to other doctors… I’m not complaining because the first doctor took my problems seriously and I actually feel like I’m on a better path to figuring this whole mess out. Continue reading “TESTS GALORE!”

EMPTINESS ADRIFT

Falling like a snowflake,

melting in the spring

I pry my eyes wide open

to feel the familiar emptiness.

It’s in my heart

It’s in my conscious

Maybe it’s always been there.

Emptiness is all encompassing,

swallowing me whole like a snake

eating it’s first meal of the day.

Continue reading “EMPTINESS ADRIFT”

MY MIND

In honor of May being Mental Health Awareness month, I was inspired to write this poem as my first Daily Prompt post.

My mind,

utterly numb and drained,

restless sleep

plaguing my being,

I descend into chaotic melancholy

that is depression

and anxiety.

The two devils sitting on my shoulder–

one screaming don’t care,

the other forcing worries into my ears Continue reading “MY MIND”

IN HONOR OF MAY BEING MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS MONTH… ARE YOU VITAMIN DEFICIENT?

**I am not a doctor, so please don’t rely on this information completely – I’ve Googled as best as I can, plus added my own experience, so things may not be perfect!

I wanted to speak about something that’s not talked about enough: Vitamin deficiency.

If you’re struggling with mental health issues such as anxiety or depression, try asking your doctor about getting your blood tested to see if you’re deficient in anything.

Vitamin D is a big one that either can lead to or worsen depression.

But, this may be new to you… Have you heard of Brazil nuts? Those large ones that come in containers of mixed nuts? Yes, those. They contain an important mineral called Selenium. My hubby came upon a man named Tim Ferriss as a guest on a podcast who was sharing his story of depression and suicidal thoughts, and he brought up Brazil nuts. (Tim Ferriss has a podcast of his own and that’s here: http://tim.blog/podcast/)

Continue reading “IN HONOR OF MAY BEING MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS MONTH… ARE YOU VITAMIN DEFICIENT?”

SWEPT AWAY

My dreams are swept under the rug as I wrestle with reality.

Motivation, passion, drive, all that once was-

feels so long ago now; so foreign.

My hopes are swept away like dirt with a broom.

Gathered up, particles swimming through the air as I cough and choke,

brushing them outside once and for all.

-tmtf

Photo from Pixabay.com, by okimini