I wanted to preface this post by saying that it’s coming from a more raw and negative place than I typically expect to write from. I want my blog to be polished and enjoyable to read, but I also want it to be real. When I feel more positive, I’ll write more positively. But this is me in this moment. 🙂
For me, the change of seasons doesn’t mark that much significance. Maybe it’s because little things don’t bring as much joy anymore, or because I don’t go outside often or long enough to appreciate all the little changes that happen in the weather and in the world. Continue reading “HAPPY SPRING! WHAT THE CHANGE OF SEASON IS LIKE FOR THE REST OF US”
Well, it’s (late) March, and that means it’s Endometriosis Awareness Month! Not much to be excited about, sorry – except for bringing awareness to such a terrible disease. I was officially diagnosed last year, and that diagnosis took approximately five years to finally hear. That said, I think it’s important to talk about this under-reported disease.
This is a long read with some gory details, but that’s naturally part of the disease. I understand if you’re not comfortable reading about it, I get that way, too. I’m not one who’d feel comfortable spreading awareness about this in person, so a post is a much easier way for me to talk about it.
**I am not a doctor, so please don’t rely on this information completely – I’ve Googled as best as I can, plus added my own experience, so things may not be perfect! Continue reading “MARCH IS ENDOMETRIOSIS AWARENESS MONTH – WHAT IT IS, AND WHY AWARENESS MATTERS”
So, my flare-up has gotten a bit better, but I still haven’t managed to post in a few days. I’ve been working on posts, they’ve just been taking extra long and haven’t managed to get onto the blog. Maybe because I’ve been waiting until midnight to start writing them… Yeah. Good time management.
I so want to be done my novel! I would feel great to have it done, and out there, and just DONE. I never realized the turmoil of emotions that go with writing a novel over the course of several years. One moment I hate it so much, the other I love it – well, maybe not “love” – rather, feeling connected to it, that maybe it seems like a “real story”, and/or proud that I wrote something so long. Right now I hate it again. My novel is just weighing on me!
The following was taken from another post I started and haven’t published yet, because I feel lazy right now and thought it might fit better here anyway. 🙂 Continue reading “HAPPY ST. PATRICK’S DAY – I NEED ALL THE LUCK I CAN GET TO FINISH MY NOVEL!”
(I wrote this a few days ago before my current flare-up, so since it was already mostly done, thought I’d go ahead and post it today.)
It’s a pretty interesting thing, all the opportunities the internet gives us. The internet has actually changed my life in some big ways (like meeting hubby.) 😀
As for making money… just to name a few, there’s blogging, Youtube, Ebay. Lots of people are making a living by combining their skills and passions, using the internet as their platform. It has created millionaires, billionaires even. That sounds scary and exciting, doesn’t it? The pressure to try it out, the possibility of failing. Don’t enter it solely thinking about the money; enter it thinking about doing what you love. Money is the bonus, the best after-thought, the result of hard work and building a supportive audience. Even for those like me without the ability to get a job, I know it’s not realistic to focus solely on making money. Money is definitely a huge factor why I want to write, of course. But it has to be more than that. Continue reading “WHY I’M GRATEFUL FOR THE INTERNET AS AN ASPIRING WRITER”
…though I felt like it.
Well, it’s the fourth? day of the blog, and I haven’t posted in two days. How surprising! I slept a lot yesterday and the day before, I think (it all sort of blends together). I slept late today, but that happens most days. I don’t know if the pain causes me to sleep so late, or depression, or both. But, no napping on National Napping Day. To be completely honest, I didn’t know about the holiday. 😉
Yesterday and today I’ve been having a terrible flare-up. Sometimes I can sleep through the pain, sometimes I can’t. I grudgingly made a doctor’s appointment but it’s not for another couple of weeks. In the meantime I’m hoping I can manage the pain if it doesn’t go away on its own. By the time the appointment rolls around, the pain might have already disappeared – for the time being. Continue reading “NATIONAL NAPPING DAY – HOW FITTING, BECAUSE I DIDN’T NAP TODAY”
Below I’ve written a short poem. I’d hate for what I write to come off as “poor me”, these are not my intentions in the slightest. In this poem I wanted to get my thoughts across bluntly.
I feel strongly that the medical community needs to improve in many areas, including, most importantly, taking concerns seriously. It took me five years for a proper diagnosis (including a bit of my own time to research the most effective treatment methods and to locate a good doctor who uses those treatment methods), but in hindsight, I think my problems may have begun several years prior to those five years.
My symptoms seemed to have peaked five years ago, and progressively grew worse before my treatment. I’m still healing now about six months out, and the negativity cloud still haunts me that I won’t “get better”. Alas, I have more than the one issue that was treated, so there’s probably more that needs to be done. How fun. Here goes: Continue reading “CHRONIC ILLNESS RANT & POEM”
I can’t go for a job interview tomorrow.
I don’t have an income.
I don’t have my own place.
I don’t possess many (any?) skills, or a college degree. In fact, I’m kind of a college-dropout… if you can call it that. I didn’t stay long.
The future? It seems bleak and impossible.
How can we grab opportunities out of the sky? They don’t always just exist, opportunities have to be made... Created when there are literally NO OTHER OPTIONS.
My biggest hurdle as someone with several chronic health issues, is making things happen. Continue reading “MAKING OPPORTUNITIES WHEN THERE ARE NO OPTIONS”