SLOWLY BUT SURELY

Hello!

So it has been a little while, but I’m back, if not only just for now. ๐Ÿ˜‰

I’ve had the nerve block for my chronic pelvic pain (see my previous posts about the root causes of my pain) and it seems to be working. Yay! ๐Ÿ˜€ I don’t have nearly as much of that awful, heavy, bowling ball in my pelvis, it-hurts-to-walk feeling, which is such a relief. Honestly, that’s been the worst part for me lately. Whenever I’d feel that way (which was 99% of the time or more) my mood would instantly be affected (grumpy, mainly) because it was just so utterly uncomfortable.ย  Continue reading “SLOWLY BUT SURELY”

PUTTING IT DOWN ON PAPER

Depression has hit me hard lately. It’s always looming over my head like a storm, but it still seems to sink me deeper sometimes. If you don’t know what depression feels like, a good way to describe it is like a mosquito (or some other annoying bug) buzzing in your ear constantly, and you can’t swat it away. It’s unignorable – which apparently is not a real word, but let’s just ignore that little fact.

I haven’t been used to writing so I couldn’t even remember what writing program to open and write with. I figured it out, but that’s not how I want things to be going.

I don’t think I’ve cracked my laptop open in several days, which has been an ongoing trend. This plastic paper weight has just been sitting there, mocking me, and for some reason my cat thought it would be a good idea to sleep on it a couple of times. Because a hard plastic surface is comparable to a fluffy couch… I’ll never understand that! (Photo is reference for how comfy my cat lookedย while sleeping on my laptop.)

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I SPILLED COFFEE ON MY LAPTOP

A couple days ago, as I was trying to get comfortable in my chair, I accidentally moved my coffee mug, and it tipped over – almost in slow motion to mock me – sloshing its contents all over my laptop, which I had the mug placed on for whatever reason. I seem to use it as a table when I’m not actively using it. Why? I have no idea.

Anyway, that’s not an excuse as to why I’ve been a bit absent here. Fortunately my laptop is still holding up for now, it was closed when my coffee spilled but some did manage to make its way under the touchpad.

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BACK AGAIN

Well, I’ve been MIA here on the blog. The dreaded colonoscopy happened. The recovery has been rough pain-wise (it seemed to have triggered a pain flare-up) and I’ve been so exhausted from it all. The good news is that I received good news (no endometriosis found!), so I feel very thankful for that. ๐Ÿ™‚

Other than that, life stresses have distracted me from writing regularly. I can’t believe it’s been a week since I wrote a post. Not how I wanted this week to go, but every time I thought about writing, I wanted to, yet I didn’t. I know that as an aspiring writer, that’s not a very good thing. If I stop, I might not be able to get back on the horse again.

-tmtf

Photo from Pixabay.com, by Pezibear

TESTS GALORE!

A little update on my health, for those interested in the chronic illness part of my blog.

I’ve been going to doctor appointments like a mad woman lately. It started with a new doctor who then referred me to several other doctors, who referred me to other doctors… I’m not complaining because the first doctor took my problems seriously and I actually feel like I’m on a better path to figuring this whole mess out. Continue reading “TESTS GALORE!”

YOU LIT UP EVERY ROOM

To someone that I’m part of, to someone that I miss. Dedicated to a family member. โค

Strength, humor, wit, pure love and thoughtfulness–

That is only the beginning in describing your character.

I can’t imagine the pain you must have been in, but I know you were strong, and you taught everyone around you the beauty in that. Continue reading “YOU LIT UP EVERY ROOM”

PAIN REMEDIES FOR ENDOMETRIOSIS & ADENOMYOSIS PAIN

Well, I wasn’t planning on writing another post on my health/pain today, but I felt the need to due to how the day went.

Today, I had absolutely terrible pain – the kind that makes you want to scream and/or curse repeatedly. No matter which way I moved, I hurt. All I could manage was laying on my bed and watching Breaking Bad episodes I’ve already seen before. Eventually the pain faded and currently it’s at a dull ache.

I’ve not had children, but I’ve heard that Endometriosis/Adenomyosis pain can sometimes be comparable to labor pains, and in extreme cases of those diseases, sometimes even worse than labor… I was in such agony for those couple hours, I kept wondering, how on earth do women have children? Bravery, I tell you. I don’t know exactly what labor’s like, but I do know this pain. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Continue reading “PAIN REMEDIES FOR ENDOMETRIOSIS & ADENOMYOSIS PAIN”